Cookies are better

"The truth" they ask, but they don't really mean that. No one wants to hear the truth. They want comforting, loving, homemade pies of lies and half truths. 

Well, I don't bake that. I love cookies, and they are crusty, sometimes as hard as a mistake, and maybe bitter like the truth, but they are delicious. Oh, those chocolate chips goodies! That melted chocolate that gets all over your face feels like childhood, back when lying felt like murder. 

But some people want cake, where you can find the truth in one of the layers, if you're looking for it. And some people want cupcakes, lies covered with way too much sugar. And pies, who doesn't love pies? You could bake anything you want inside a pie. And all of these taste nicely enough to live with. 

Specially when the cookie jar is too high, not out of reach, but we are forced to have cupcakes, pies and cakes, because the one that invited us over will not go through the trouble of reaching for the cookie jar. And the funniest part is baking a pie filled with lies, hiding the truth in a cake or omitting the half truths and lies under thick minion cupcake decoration it's way harder than just reaching for the cookie jar. 

But we still prefer to lie. We eat our pies with our guests, and they taste wonderfully, just like our fantasies. We cry alone in our bedrooms having a sad piece of cake, because the truth is buried and we don't care about it anymore. And how many hours did we spent decorating cupcakes, pretending everything is okay, because Disney characters are just too cute?  

It's cookie time. 

It's time to climb all the way up and reach for the cookie jar on top of the fridge. We'll go through so much, specially the freezer, which is as cold as dropping our perfect pie on the ground. But when we reach for those cookies, nothing else will taste the same. 

I'll be honest now, people prefer pies, cakes and cupcakes, they don't want the truth, no one likes bitter, sour, disappointing cookies, and they will not like you for leaving that after aftertaste in their mouths. And their reactions will make you question your love for cookies. But remember how you felt when you found out your friend didn't even bake that pie, he bought it and gave it to you. And you'll know why bitter, sour, disappointing cookies are better. 

What is love?

Ever since I was a child I heard the question "What is Love?" And I never could answer it. I have accepted the fact that this is one of those questions that no one has an answer for, just like the chicken and the egg. But I recently learned what love is, and it's so much more than I could ever imagine.  

Love is something we feel in our hearts, when we think about this person and the blood pumps faster. And it comes out of nowhere too; one day you go to sleep thinking about this friend of yours, and as you close your eyelids, you think "Yeah, they are my best friend." And just like that, when you wake up in the morning, you know you love them. You don't want to marry them, just hang around with them for the rest of your life.  

Which brings me to my next point: love is forever. Even when the person we love hurts us so deeply that we cannot look at them; it hurts so much because we love them so truly and purely. I've loved people who were not good for me, and I put them first, before me, and I tried everything to make them happy. We both got hurt, and I ruined our relationship forever. Just remembering what happened to us, it brings back all of my anxiety. But I love this person so much, and I think about them all the time. In heart, I'll always love this person 

And now, my last point: how do we show someone we love them? And that's easier than it sounds. My mother thought me about the languages of love. Some people feel loved when we give them presents, some people feel loved when we spend time with them, some people feel loved when we do things for them. Once we find out how to love someone, everything is easier. 

So, love is just like a tattoo, that pumps ink into our veins. Sometimes we remove tattoos, but our skin will be forever scarred by them. Sometimes we are born with one, and we have it until the day we die. But always, when we feel our hearts pumping a smile on our faces, just because we remember how lucky we are for having this someone in our lives, we get a new tattoo. 

I am a contradiction in terms

The glamour, the high fashion, the lights, and of course, the city that never sleeps. I am so in love with the lights that blink, with the idealization of reality, that I cannot fully enjoy life without searching for something more. That's probably why I've became a writer, my motto has always been, "can't find the story you want to read? Write it!", I can't seem to find the life I want to live, so I'll write it down.

I want to live in New York City, I don't ever want to sleep either. But at the same time, I don't ever wanna go home, only real people go home, I wanna live at the airport, how glamourous is it, flying around the world? I want to love and be loved, but I wanna be a slut. I don't wanna be judge, but I want to judge others. I want to buy new clothes, and I want them all to fit in my closet, without having to give anything away. I want fame and glamour, and I want peace and quiet. 

I'm not a hipocrate, I'm not shallow, and I'm not selfish. I hate to admit it, but I'm only human, and I'm contradictional. I'll live my life without being able to make all of my dreams come true. It's okay. We build castles and mansions out of our imagination, and in there we play with tigers, there's not gravity, but some things are never meant to happen. That's also okay. We just need to chose wisely which dreams are worth persueing, never insisting on impossible things, but never giving up on them without trying. After all, we might as well be as crazy as someone standing in a rainstorm with a kite. 

Forgiveness

Fighting with someone you love is awful experience we all know that. Everybody gets hurt. But sometimes, some people get so deeply hurt, the relationship ends. There's no way to know what the other person will hear, how they will interpretate your actions, or read your facial expressions. We can only speak for ourselves, and judge how we would feel if we're in their place. But maybe, something so little, is big deal for somebody else. Even knowing everything there's to know about a person, you can be sure of how they will react. 

When I say something that hurts somebody else, I feel instantly bad. I know what like to be hurt by words, specially by someone you love. I try everything to be forgiven. I hate fighting and leaving it, I don't want my best friend or my boyfriend to go to bed mad at me; that's not s good thing to take to your pillow. I always try to fix things up, so everything can sleep at time, knowing, at least, that we might fight and argue, and say hurtful things, but I'll always be there for them. And there's nothing in this world that will stop me. 

But when I get hurt, most of the times I don't feel that people try that hard. They say, "eh, I'm sorry.", and that's it. If I'm truly hurt, I'll want more than just "eh, I'm sorry." I want a hug, I want to hear "I wasn't nice to you, and I won't say "I'm sorry", because I don't know you to say "it's okay." It's not okay to hurt you. I will ask for your forgiveness" And I will forgive. Forgiveness is about me going to bed and sleeping nicely; it's not about who hurt me. It's not a present I'm giving them. It's about letting go of something that doesn't bring anything useful to my life, forgiving is healing. 

Today, I was hurt. And I didn't hear an apology. But I forgave. I want to live my life happily, I want to fill my mind with joy, and music, and laughter. I cannot deal with all these negativeness again, so now I'm forgiving. It doesn't matter what people say to me, I'll forgive them. Because revenge is not worth the time, my time! I could be doing something good with this time. Good things bring good things, bad things bring horrible things. 

My review on The Fall (movie) by Tarsem Singh

One of the reason I made a blog was to give my review on one movie, that I only watched because of my sudden undying love for Lee Pace. I was on IMDb and was checking out all movies he has ever been in, and watching the ones I thought were interesting, when I found The Fall.

If I was talking to someone who has never seen a movie in their life, I would show them The Fall, because it has everything. From action to romance, to beautiful landscapes, lovable characters, and characters you will love to hate. This movie covers everything someone who has never seen a movie should watch, and if you're someone who has seen it all, but not yet The Fall, then you should see it, because I can guarantee to you, you have not yet seen anything like this.

Starting with the basics, the story and the characters. The opening credits will tell you how Roy Walker (Lee Pace), a stuntman, was paralyzed from the waist down. Then you'll meet Alexandria, a little girl with a broken arm. These two meet accidentally, in the hospital they are both patients. Roy promises to tell her an epic story, if she comes back the next day, and she agrees. What Alexandria doesn't know is that, he's depressed, and he's using her innocence to manipulate her, and try to get her to bring him medicine so he can kill himself.

The story he tells her features five amazing, mythical heroes, with completely different background and ethnicities, who are all together on a quest for revenge against the governor. The director claims that there are no visual effects on this movie [source], but after watching it you'll find hard to believe this, because it looks so surreal. But The Fall took four years to be filmed, and the cast and crew filmed it in twenty-eight different locations [source].

And if all this is not enough to convince you this is the best movie ever made, because perhaps the soundtrack might not be all that? Well, I am happy to inform you that the theme for his movie is Beethoven's Symphony No. 7. Not artistic enough, is it? Well, the cinematographic poster for this movie, is based on a Salvador Dali's painting"1935_03_Face of Mae West Which May Be Used as an Apartment" [source]

Watching The Fall is not just sitting down for a movie, but entering an magical world, made purely out of real imagination. As I always say, this movie is an cinematographic experience. But if you're still not convinced at how amazing this movie is, feel free to check out the trailer, maybe watch the movie, and leave a comment:

Feminist Music

When I was little I used to love the Pussycat Dolls, mostly because they were so beautiful, and my little self wanted to grow up and look smoking hot like them. But today I was listening to some of their old tracks, and I realized how feminist they were.

This blog is not about feminism, but as one who was born and identify as female, I have to talk about it.

The girls from PDC usued to act in a very sexual way, and that's okay. Women are sexual beings, just like men. It's okay for them to dress like that, and act like that, because they feel confortable and beautiful, and sexy. There's nothing wrong with feeling sexy, there's nothing wrong with wanting to feel sexy. Women should be able to feel and look sexy without being called sluts, but that's a matter for another post.

Another reason why that group is so important is the lyrics of their songs. Believe it or not, and I know some of their songs could be repetitive, and seemed to lack good poetry in their lyrics, but PDC's songs had a message. For example, "Wait A Minute" featuring Timbaland. It's about a man who's flirting with a really sexy girl, buying her drinks and all, and she gives him her phone number. But when he calls, she refuses to engage in sexual acts with him. Nicole, the lead singer, says at one point "You can't buy this/So you can keep that". I don't know, I might be wrong, I no expert in this matter (or any matter, actually), but that's empowering.Detail: when a gentleman buys a lady a drink, there's not law that the said lady must suck his dick. Besides, it's not his obligation to buy her anything, he bought it because he wanted.

I would also like to point it out how "I Don't Need A Man" is so amazing. This song is about girls feeling confident without having a man in her life. It doesn't mean she hates men, and don't want men in her life; feminism is not about hating men. And neither is this song. They dance together, while getting their hair done, and singing how they are going to make it very clear the things they won't do, and how they are able to live without a man. They sing "I don't need a ring around my finger to make me feel complete", again I'm not expert in feminist matters, but this line is pretty awesome.

After listening to all these old songs, I remembered another great video, "How To Be A Heartbreaker", by Marina and the diamonds. Pointing out the obvious, it's full of half naked men. Which is by itself, pretty groundbreaking. And the song is telling girls how to act like a female version of a "player"; breaking others hearts to protect their own.

My whole point with all this was just finding good music to jam to this morning. I am tired of listening to the same old music, where it's all about sex. Sometimes I wanna listen to that, but today I wanted to listen to something more, something with a good message, something that made me feel like I could change something, even if all I do is write a blog.